FOR ALLISON

from Shelby

So turns out tuna are really big :)

So I have been like mega uber busy lately and basically nocturnal. Monday was my sweet sixteen party, and the single best day of my life, that turned into a sleepover in which entertainment involved an amazing Brit, a variety of rave music, and a strange fellow renamed Diego. Tuesday was reserved for massive amounts of Chinese food and catching up on sleep lost. Wednesday I spent the day with Kenzie and with no surprise to anyone ended up spending the night after a long walk in which several people waved to us and we harassed Cj Brittin and her home. That evening kenzie discovered that tuna are actually quite large rather than "fish-sized", and it was decided in her attempts to be sad she just ends up vomiting said tuna, much like a dramatic penguin. Today was then filled with fun and adventure and has been concluded with a lovely conversation with Jamie in which we argued over Wimbledon and the "proper" pronunciation of the word blogging. Good day, set up work tomorrow and then an all night dusk - dawn crabbing adventure with dad...awesome.

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So my sweet sixteen party is tomorrow and it is going to be amazing because imma be with all my girls all day. Then I get to talk to mah Jamie Leslie Andrew Clarke :) my mom and sister made us all t-shirts and i like them and they are really cute and i feel bad i just don't wanna wear them all day because i wanna wear something that flatters me so that when i look back on the pictures i will like them not think i  looked  bad but i am totally going to wear it in the morning so that's my life at the moment. <3

a day in the life

Today was Josy's sweet 16 and she looked absolutely stunning. Now while i admit that the party scene is not my deal, the party was still so much fun. Other updates: My hair is happily black again,  my sweet 16 celebration is in less than 2 days :)...ummmm and i gotta prom date! <3 mah heather cook so yea <3

I love my family and the rare moments we get to spend together. And that is all I have to say about that :) <3

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So today was a genuinely awesome day I got to go to the beach with my cousin and spend the whole day with him, and then I got a text that ended up just messing up all the moving on that I had done and has thrown me right back into the emotions I had escaped a few days ago. And now I am just confused and still hurt and so emotional  and I really am out of ideas of what to do. The thing that annoys me the worst is I sat there in hysterics for near an hour and then he starts to try and fix things and I am sitting here smiling like an idiot. And since this blog is taking a while to write will all that is going on I actually feel better...I just hope there is a legitimate change that is going to occur and it isn't all just talk....haunted road...really? :) <3

Oh, South Jersey.

So while everything has been going surprisingly well in my life, sometimes I just like to think about stuff and just go find alone time somewhere in the midst of the woods, and lucky me I can just take a walk and I am right in the midst of what I believe to be one of the most peaceful places on Earth. Today was rainy which is normally when I do my best thinking, so I decided to go for a ride on the atv thing and just strand myself  in the middle of nowhere for an hour or two. Whenever I am there everything just falls into place and everything makes sense. and that is exactly what happened and now I can't seem to stop smiling. My thought for the day, people may come and go as the clouds but every now and then there is a friend that acts as the bright ray of sunshine that brings your world to life. Yea I just said that :) <3

Life is good :)

okay so fun fact I have been trying really hard to keep my head on straight with exercise and losing weight and everything and I went to the doctor to get a physical today and turns out after almost 3 weeks of working at it I am the smallest I have been in 2 years. I mean I know it isn't a huge difference noticed but hearing this after I know I have been working hard at it is kind of giving me the hope I guess I need to keep it going. Oh and another awesome thing about today, my baby Heather Cook is finally home from Europe. :) life is good <3

It Ends Tonight

So I was thinking today and I came to wonder, why do people not believe that a good friendship takes effort from each of the parties? I mean when you are just friends with someone you can go a while without seeing them and it is no big deal, but when it comes to your best friends, not seeing them for a week seems like ages. How can one expect to not put forth effort to see someone close to them and expect not to lose them? I personally feel really guilty when I don't get to see my good friends when I am really busy, but when it comes to certain people the same thoughts don't seem to apply to me. Like for me not seeing Honey Mustard or Consuela or my Mama for a couple of weeks is like missing a whole part of my life. And when Kenzie leaves for Disney for 5 months I am going to be beside myself. And it is probably the same way back to me from these people, but like with CJ, we get in an argument and he wont even try to put in the effort to talk to me because I guess it isn't worth it to him.So I guess my thought for today is when is the right time to realize that you are putting more into a friendship than you are getting out of it, and when is the right time to move on if the above occurs? <3>

This Is Me

I never really understood this whole blog scenario, and I will openly admit that I am terrified of people taking initiative to actually care what I have to say. I always have been the one to write all my emotional thoughts down and hide them away for fear of judgment but hey maybe it is time I stop worrying about what other people think of my thoughts. So here it is, my attempt at letting out hostilities and thoughts and all other things going on in my mind, if you read it thats awesome if you don't that too is fantastic, but I am doing this for me, not for anyone else. So hello, this is me, exactly who I love to be. <3>